I Am Struggling with Balance
I am having a huge struggle with balance right now. I am talking in several different ways here.
- Literal balance – I mean if I fall one more time I am just going to find a place to make me a human size hamster ball to live in.
- Professional portion of life great, personal seems to be crashing hard.
- How do you go back to school after 13 years? I am excited. Do NOT get me wrong. But I can NOT even walk from one room to the next without falling so how can I balance, Work, School, and a relationship?! (It’s not alcohol either, stop that thought.) Ok, maybe last week I fell off the wagon a minute.
Am I the only one who feels like when everything in your professional life goes great, that you personal life and relationships struggle? I mean we are talking huge struggle. We are not on the same page at all. I feel like I am being resented a little for having so many projects and accomplishments right now. Also, part of me feels like maybe it seems like I do not need anyone but myself. Now that I am getting stronger again and back to myself, I seriously feel like I am liked less and less by my significant other. We can not have a conversation without arguing. The truth about strong people is that they really need support and love. They are always busy giving and giving that sometimes (more often than not) they are drained of every emotion they have because they give so much to others.The thing is, that I am happy. I am enjoying what I am doing. I love my journey with Rodan + Fields. I love that now my boss has me writing blogs at work. The big bonus is that the topics are usually about our clients. It is really helping me and will be an asset when I am done with school as well. I love that God changed my decision to go to Nursing School for a second Bachelor’s degree; now I am getting my Master’s of Art in Counseling. I mean things are great. Except for when I am home alone.Finding balance in life is so hard. I know everything will sort itself out. I have been working so hard. Patience is not my virtue. I just want everything now.