Losing Faith and Finding it Again

The first few weeks after the assault I felt like I was losing my faith. It’s hard to explain unless you have been there but everything you have ever known and trusted has been crushed. You start questioning everything including the assault itself. You have people telling you what you need to do and you just feel like a zombie. There are people making you tell the story for days after over and over. Then you write it all down. Then someone else tells you to keep a journal so you do not forget things.

There is no way you can forget any of the details of the assault unless you are knocked out or drugged. In fact, once you settle down and get out of your hyper vigilant state you actually remember things.

Anyway…I do not want a sad/angry/fear filled post. I want to tell you about how I lost my faith and how I’m slowly getting it back.

1. Listening to K-Love ( @KLoveRadio ) before bed, then downloading the app, then on the way to work….just last week I started listening in my office at work also. So basically all the time. I sing it so loud in the shower and pray my neighbors have a better day for it!

2. Long walks with my dog Chloe….but definitely only when the sun is out :). Look for a beautiful sunrise, sunset, or flower. Whatever makes your heart tick.

Chloe the boxer

3. Journaling – Sometime to get the yucky stuff out and other times to write down a quote or scripture that makes me feel warm and fuzzy

4. Painting and other crafts – if you are painting or creating something beautiful you are not thinking about trauma

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“For we live by faith, not by sight.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:7‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Have a great weekend everyone! Be safe!


Kat, Chloe and Grace




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Published by My Saving Grace

I am just an ordinary girl that has been through more than most people in my short life. I want to help others heal and overcome life's difficult moments by sharing mine. If I help one person then I have done my part. My main goal is to help victims of Sexual Assault find Hope, Healing and Peace from the most difficult thing a person can ever go through. It is a long journey but we will do this together.

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