Losing Faith and Finding it Again
The first few weeks after the assault I felt like I was losing my faith. It’s hard to explain unless you have been there but everything you have ever known and trusted has been crushed. You start questioning everything including the assault itself. You have people telling you what you need to do and you just feel like a zombie. There are people making you tell the story for days after over and over. Then you write it all down. Then someone else tells you to keep a journal so you do not forget things.
There is no way you can forget any of the details of the assault unless you are knocked out or drugged. In fact, once you settle down and get out of your hyper vigilant state you actually remember things.
Anyway…I do not want a sad/angry/fear filled post. I want to tell you about how I lost my faith and how I’m slowly getting it back.
1. Listening to K-Love ( @KLoveRadio ) before bed, then downloading the app, then on the way to work….just last week I started listening in my office at work also. So basically all the time. I sing it so loud in the shower and pray my neighbors have a better day for it!
2. Long walks with my dog Chloe….but definitely only when the sun is out :). Look for a beautiful sunrise, sunset, or flower. Whatever makes your heart tick.
3. Journaling – Sometime to get the yucky stuff out and other times to write down a quote or scripture that makes me feel warm and fuzzy
4. Painting and other crafts – if you are painting or creating something beautiful you are not thinking about trauma
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
Hebrews 11:1 NIV
“For we live by faith, not by sight.”
2 Corinthians 5:7 NIV
Have a great weekend everyone! Be safe!
Kat, Chloe and Grace
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